Once you hear that word…Cancer…it shifts something in you. It doesn’t compare, at all, but the only thing I can compare it to is when I found out I was pregnant. From the second I saw the two pink lines, everything in my world shifted. Priorities change. Things become more clear in your mind.
life, growth, surviving, living, pain, beauty, a little dash of diva

I have found myself walking a thin line between trying to be the optimistic, supportive cheerleader wife and trying to be grounded in reality and really think about what a cancer diagnosis means. The thing about Sean is he has been the eternal optimist and he KNOWS he will beat cancer, his strength through the first weeks and months of all this has been truly incredible. I felt like I was falling apart constantly, the littlest thing would set me off on a crying jag. Yet, at the same time, I believe he will beat this and I know he will be okay.

It’s a hard space to be in mentally, feeling emotionally fragile all the time but trying to keep the positive thoughts at the forefront. I struggle with anxiety and depression in normal day to day life, then you throw something life altering like cancer into the mix and there’s an even bigger chance of falling into a depression because things just seem so hopeless and you feel helpless. I’m someone who really likes to be in control, and fix things…I can’t fix this. I have zero control over any of this and I HATE that.

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Some things that I’ve found to help me combat all these scary feelings and thoughts are doing things that make us feel like things are still normal. Normalcy is something you take for granted until you don’t have it anymore.

Back in May of 2017, we went from a SAD *Standard American Diet to a WFPB *whole food plant based diet, basically cutting refined, processed crap and increasing the whole foods, eating plant based. It takes a little getting used to and a little more preparation, but it’s not as hard as it seemed at one time. Anyway, we had been doing great, then cancer happened and life became about getting to and from doctor appts and my meal planning and cooking sort of flew out the window, take out was happening way too often and we’d fallen back into the SAD because it’s easy. Now that we feel like we’ve got a better handle on the cancer stuff, we are back to WFPB, and have found an organic farm near our house that has a CSA box (Community Supported Agriculture) program, so weekly we go out to the farm and pick up our fresh grown, organic produce and my kids get to visit the goats and donkey’s and chickens. It’s something normal that we all enjoy.

We’ve found that all four of us really enjoy thrifting! We have a lot of great thrift stores all around us and in the past couple of months, we’ve been to all of them! We’ve found some awesome deals and gotten some really cool stuff. There are times we go and don’t buy anything, just have fun looking at all the ‘treasures’ and other times, we will each find something to buy. The important part is we are all together, enjoying ourselves and having fun.

Basically, we are just trying to live. Live life to the fullest, create memories wherever we can, enjoy being together even if it’s just the mundane stuff like grocery shopping.

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